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Narcisa’s mother, the self-righteous, unrepentant born-again Christian “chocadeira” or “egg layer” as Narcisa has aptly named her, continues to try and harass us, accusing me of being a corrupting influence in  the life of her poor, innocent, well-bred little offspring.

It’s really pathetic how these simple-minded evangelical twits’ warped minds operate. But its predictable, cuz in the absence of the acceptance of a coherent value system to keep the old ego in check and teach one to look inward at the true source of their problems and basic dysfunctions in human society, they’re simply compelled to construct a blame-oriented system of beliefs, always looking outward in search of a convenient scapegoat, an easy villain. The devil.

Now I’ve been given that dubious distinction by this pious old cow. I’m the one who is collaborating and facilitating and enabling Narcisa in her unholy quest for self-destruction. It is one point of view, of course, and quite an easy one to be tricked into, especially in the absence of any notion of personal accountability for karma or consequences in the evangelical doctrine.

Still, I’ve even asked myself many times if there isn’t some truth there, if I’m not indeed feeding her insanity, deluding myself that I’m helping in some way with my love, my belief, my own dubious good example of how an addict can become happy, useful and whole…

These are complicated, agonizing questions that obsess my thinking all day long. And, try as I may to find an answer, the more I live this life with Narcisa, the more I’m convinced there’s no easy answers for us here. So I go with the flow a day at a time, confident of one thing only: that nothing happens by mere happenstance or random accident. No way.

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